I don't want to destroy that fragile friendship that we have
That's why I chose to come to my little corner to vent and think.
Just as I was feeling better..
You asked to remove cause your gf will come and read at times.
But... this is my blog.
Somewhere that I have been writing since secondary school...
I am the one who is sad now.
I am having my finals.
You're the one who is going to travel soon...
Why you willing to make me even sadder.
You really don't care how it made me feel?
I thought will upset you if we had serious talk.
So I went to recollect myself.
Before I reply you..
Ended up I did nothing since 5..
Why is it always exam period?
First was went I bought mac breakfast for you
Since its your first paper.
But I forgot to pass you butter and honey so I went to your room
But you were on the phone, I had no idea who
You scolded me...
Told me to tell you before I go find you..
Said you trying very hard to stay as friends and I am not helping..
But all I want to was to pass you the butter and honey so
you can eat the pancakes...
Second time was when my paper ended later than you,
I know you would have plans with her.
So I asked you to do it after my papers,
but no, you went ahead and left me very badly wounded.
I couldn't study for my remaining papers..
Maybe it's on me that I couldn't concentrate.
But I really tried my best not to msg and disturb you.
Last sem. Your bday.
I was excited so I called everyday.
But on that day, I didn't expect...
It ended so badly. I blamed myself.
So afterwards I held everything in.
And we had fun, sort of.
Didn't argue...
Why did you tell me you going Laos with her.
I didn't ask. I didn't want to know..
Just come up with any excuse would be fine.
Why need to tell me?
Is it you too insensitive?
Or
To see my reaction?
To check if I had gotten over?
Happy that I didn't?
I don't understand.
Why?
I need to pen down my thoughts so I can focus on my paper...
It has been a habit ever since a long time ago
Why I am deprived of my own space?
This has always been my safe haven..
I honestly didn't know anyone else is reading..
It wasn't my intention.
I just need my space.
I did a lot for you.
I think I did more than enough.
I think I should stop being the compromised end.
It's my freedom and rights to write.
I private it once for you.
I took down a lot of posts for you.
But I got hurt more and more instead...?
Maybe ask her to stop reading since she's your gf.
You have authority over her, not me.
Make unreasonable requests to her, not me.
Why is she reading in the first place :/
Insecure also on me??
Cannot trust also on me??
I don't understand what's your definition of liking someone.
Said you like me, but have no qualms of hurting me.
But you will tell me you miss me.
????????????????
After your trip to Thailand,
you say you missed me and want to meet when when you're back.
And you'll think of me when you're there.
Then why you go Thailand with her in the first place???
Can physically be with someone but think about another?
Did you really enjoy yourself when you're with her?
After my trip from Korea,
you can tell me you hadn't gotten over.
I disappeared from your life totally when I was there.
But you're with her all these time?
Why still got feelings for me??
Is it you don't like her that much?
I'm sure you will tell her/have told her you don't like me anymore.
To which of us are you telling the truth to???
I am confused.
I'm so confused.
Is it you're confused?
I really don't understand.
So much questions that I cannot focus to study.
