Its been such a long time since I've sincerely blogged.
I think I just do not have the mood or something.
But that doesn't mean I should abandon my blog that had been with me for years.

I guess the things that's on my mind is my results.
Gotten it 2weeks ago I think.
I shld be happy with it shldnt I?
Parents told me that its good enough already.
But I know it myself.
I didn't put in 100% effort (as usual)

This sem GPA I got 3.7
1B, 2B+, 2A and 1 Distinction.

Mark Tan (Big) told me that I shld at least get all A and 1B+..

Did I fail him?
Is this results not good enough?

I can't really discuss this with anyone.
The results are really not bad if you consider how much time I spent studying and playing.
But I really feel that the results is still far from good.
I see people getting GPA 4..

And I feel that I shld be able to get GPA 4.0 too..

I really can't see myself getting poor results.
Cause people around me just feel that I SHOULD get good results.
Or maybe its only me.
Competitive? Complacent? Or just plain greedy?

我应该要学会知足。

I guess its something that Joyce once blogged about.
Something about us being having good results for PSLE and enrolled in TMS.
Something about getting from being TMS to the current school now.

People around you just expects more from you.
Saying TMS is a good school so the people there is smart.
There's no reason that you can't score well.

Or maybe its in our mind.
Like TMS is a better school.
That I'm from a better school so I have to get better results if not people will look down on us.

I think I just want to be good in one aspect.
I have no musical talent, I can't do nuts about sports.
So the very least I can do is excel in studies.
If I can't even do well in studies, I'm really good for nothing.


Or is it that's what I want people to think? Like..
"This girl is smart"
"She's good at studying"









But I think the most impt point is Uni.
I'm angry at myself for not be able to focus enough during the exams.
I know that to be able to get into a good Uni is GPA of 3.8
I got 3.7
Its just that one small bit of effort more.
I feel that I've failed.

My dad is working his butt off to pay for my fees.
All he want is for me to go Uni and finish my degree and start working.
Now that I can't even get to a good Uni really gets me down.
I know the COP for my course is 3.3
But I want to get into a good Uni.
In sg, w/o a good cert you can barely survive.
That's the reality that I must face.


时间真的会证明一切吗？
还是会摧毁一切呢？